Life Is Good

Aww man, life is good when you have a job. And even better when you love your job. Not that work is easy. There are hard days when it's stressful and tough. But that doesn't mean it was a bad day. Just challenging. It's a good push for me though. It helps me grow and get ahead in life. But yeah, just to let you all know, I am quite conent with my life right now. I am truly blessed.

Becoming JANE!!!!

Oh lord. Here we go again. Another British movie that has my blood pumping. But seriously, even if this wasn't about Jane Austen, it would still stand alone as a wonderful exquisite movie.
But yes, this movie is about the young authoress Jane Austen before she became widely known, starring Anne Hathaway. Then it also is about Tom Lefroy, played by James McAvoy (who is not lacking in the looks department), the "impertinent" suitor that comes into Jane's life, suppossedly portraying a similar "Mr.Darcy" from one of Miss Austen's novels. Let me tell you, this romance is not one to miss. These two have so much chemistry, it burns up the screen. And they don't have to stoop so low as to show a sex scene in order to see how much these two people love each other. In one scene, the two character's are so distraught over the conflicting circumstances that they have a moment of passion that is almost turned into a domestic brawl. Now that is all I will spoil for you. Go see this movie. It gets five stars in my book.

Finally

I got a job. My dream job. At the doctor's office as a full time medical assistant. YES.
And now a moment of silence for all the patience, hard work, and perseverance it took to get a job:
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Thank You.
LMAO. Okay do you know just how ridiculously stupidly long it took for me to get a job? I am so relieved. It's like a big burden was lifted off my shoulder's. THANK GOD...

"SiCKO" is a brilliant movie

Wow. I love this movie. It has such a powerful message. Not only is it about universal health care but it is also about the power of the human heart and soul. Would I like to pay taxes so everybody can recieve free health care? Yes. Would I like to work as a medical professional in a universal health care system and recieve less wages knowing that I am providing health care to everybody? Young and old, poor and rich? Yes.
This documentary is the best movie I've seen since Passion of the Christ. Now, you wouldn't think that a documentary made by a democrat would have a Christ-like message. But this one does. Yeah, it seems comical. But GO. SEE. THIS. MOVIE. You will see what I'm talking about. After all thats said and done, health care should be about HELPING PEOPLE, not about money. But that is sadly what health care is about in America these days. Now, you go to England and France, who have universal health care, are they socialist? Fascist? Communist? NO! Are England and France's patients receiving less quality care than those who are priveleged to receive care here in the states? NO. Are doctor's paid less by working for the government? Yes. BUT, you should NOT go into health care for the money. You should go into health care to HELP PEOPLE. That is the whole issue! People ARE OBSESSED WITH BEING RICH!!! Who the heck cares about being rich when you can live comfortabely and know that you are making a difference??!!! The truth is these american doctors are being paid BONUSES from insurance companies for DENYING care!!! That is ABSURD! There must be a way to stop this absurdity. And to hell with term "socialized medicine"! Alot of things are free in America! Public schools. Libraries. Public Safety. Post offices. Why not health care?!!

Plus, doctor's in England are paid more if they help more people. If they help more people lower their blood pressure, reduce stress, reduce cholesterol, etc....They get bonuses. Yet in America you get a bonus for denying health care! What the heck?!!!!!


I am so glad that I am of age to vote. Because I am voting for universal health care. I am proud of it, too.

Deep voices....

Turn me on!!! OMG! Especially deep british voices. Ohhhhh my....
Don't get me within 10 feet of a dark, tall, and handsome british guy with a deep sexy voice or I might have to faint or even worse jump on the sexy bloke and smother him with kisses. Holy hell...
Like this man, Matthew Macfadyen, you might remember him from the most recent version of Pride and Prejudice......just listening to his voice is enough to make any woman go crazy. The comments on this Youtube video was nothing but "I could listen to him speak all day" and "I <3 his voice!!!". Ain't that the truth? I don't care what he's talking about. All he has to do is speak. Plus he is incredibly sexy on top of that. Dark, tall, and handsome. Has some meat on him to boot. That's what I call a real man. Not these american "boys" we're stuck with here...

Quarrelings inside my skull

Fear. Such an annoying little feeling. Course, it's a natural reaction. But it stunts your emotional, physical, and professional growth. Like not getting enough sun or drinking enough milk.
They say "Oh it's normal!!! It will cease with time!!". But, you still have to deal with it on a day to day basis. It's still there, lurking in the corner of your brain. Whispering it's coniving little remarks to you with slithery vengance. You listen to it and it controls you. Making every part of your body sick with it's disease. You cannot stop shaking. Sweating. Dwelling. And there's no way to control it. Once you allow it to be listened to, it's there. "I KNOW I can do this!!" You say to yourself. But it's too late. You have already opened it's wretched doors. It flows in like a gas, seeping through every remnant of your mind.

That is what I have gone through these past couple weeks. And I'm tired of it. I have read countless passages of literature on how to control your fear. Fear of failure. Fear of success. Fear of incompetence. And I think I'm on the brink of fighting back. I must train my mind to not listen. To fight back with every ounce of strength I've got.

Amen Sista!!!

I was browsing the net when I came across these articles. Written by brilliant people just like me ;P
Like Sehlia Goss. The independent woman who wrote this article:
(NOTE: My Comments in bold are not part of the original article)

Does it make you a gold digger because you like nice things and want to be spoiled by your significant other? There's nothing wrong with a woman because she wants the royal treatment from the men she dates.

Does it make her less independent? I don't think so. Independence is a state of being. If you're independent, you know who you are. You don't depend on a man or anyone for that matter to take care of your business (personal or otherwise). But it doesn't mean you don't want love and affection like the next woman.

As much as men confess to want an independent woman, some can't deal with our independence. Why? I've been accused of being independent by several men. One day I asked a guy why he labeled me as such. He pointed out several reasons why: #1 Because I didn't seem to need anything from anybody (at the time I owned my own house, car, etc..) My question to him was "why should I wait on a man to buy a house?" He had no response. #2 Because of my attitude. Now you know mentioning a woman and attitude in the same sentence to a woman will bring out an attitude (smile). I didn't react, I listened to him. He went on to say that I was always nice to him but I had a nonchalant attitude about him and that he had to be the one to initiate the calls, etc. Well, hmm. I said, that I'm from the old school. If a man wants a woman, he should be pursuing her, not me pursuing him. He then went on to point out, that's why he thinks I have an attitude. He was used to women calling him 24/7 apparently. He made a couple of other points but those are the two that I easily recall.

MC: BAM!! Right there! To this I say WTF?!!! Some men want you to call them?? Whaaa??! You guys need to get your act together!

Can a man not deal with a woman who isn't clingy (although they complain they hate a clingy woman)? Is it because they are insecure and the fact that if they are with an independent woman they can't half-step.

MC: Preach it!

I for one still need romance and I like nice things and I like being pampered. Reason being, when I'm in a relationship, my man is pampered. Whatever I give, is what I expect. Being independent doesn't take away from the relationship. A man should be happy that he has a woman who can think for herself and do for herself.

MC: Amen and amen.

To quote Destiny's Child: All the ladies who truly feel me, Throw your hands up at me.

Now, that is one way to look at it. But there are two sides to every story. And so with great hesitency, I must paste this humbling but truthful article by romanceopedia.com...

Liberated But Alone... Okay, so you burned your bras and now you are liberated. Yes, you've gained many freedoms that were previously not acceptable for women.You can ask a man for a date and even be the one who proposes if you decide to do so.You can pursue your own careers and many of you have proven that you are quite capable of leading as well as following.You can drink beer straight from the bottle, go to male stripper shows, smoke cigars, and use any choice cuss word that you want; whereever you want. You are indeed liberated. You've worked hard for it, you've earned it, and no one should deny you what countless generations of your gender have struggled and sacrificed to accomplish. However, none of this makes you necessarily attractive, desired, wanted, or pursued. In fact, should you be one of those women who is caught up in the current trend to act and be "bitchy," doing so actually makes you very unattractive in the eyes of most men. Yes, you say that you can live without men who will not readily accept you should you have a bitchy attitude? Fine. Just realize that you've narrowed the field of men down to a very small minority. Furthermore, any willingness on their part to give in to a woman who feigns equality when really exercising control may be more out of their desparation than any kind of true acceptance. -

MC: My first reaction to this paragraph was "Ha! Was this written by a man?!" *rolls eyes*....

Independent is Good, But... Before you dismiss the rest of this article, please read on. It could very well be that the point being made here will help any female reader gain some needed insight into the workings of the male mind and visa-versa. You see, few males would ever demean a woman who has done well in her chosen career. Most of us enjoy a gal with some spunk. One of this writer's favorite movie scenes is from "Overboard," starring Goldie Hawne and Kirk Russell. Her character joins him for a beer at a redneck bar. When she reaches for her drink, Russell's character states that, "I've always been attracted to women who drink their beer straight from the bottle." The point is that we men enjoy our women in all shapes and sizes and with all of your liberties as well, but we are absolutely turned off and disgusted when you feel that you can only relate to us with an "attitude."

MC: Can we not have an attitude every once in a while? Damn! Give me a break!

- Understand How Men See You... Much like the gay male who overdoes his femininity with flamboyance, we view a female who is overly aggressive, manipulative, demeaning, and indignate in much the same way. There will never be any substitute for the expression true humanity, whether it is demonstrated by a man or a woman. Nothing is more attractive to a male than a liberated woman with a balanced attitude that is genuine and considerate. I happen to work in an environment filled with young adults. Not only that, but I have two grown sons. If overly aggressive women could but hear the disgust for them as these young fellows talk, they would have to reconsider their self-deluded arrogance that demands they portray themselves as bitchy women. Except for whimps, there are few real men who really want anything to do with women who are self-gradiozed and demeaning toward men. These are the same women who revel in denigrating men for their supposed cluelessness. In truth, this issue has less to do with any difference between the sexes and much more to do with whether or not one is going to be a decent human being. I've had the experience of dating a woman who, although she was physically gorgeous, portrayed a superior attitude in all that she said and did. Her response to our four dates together resulted in an e-mail message stating that I was very "basic and simple" and that she was really looking for her "equal." Even if I am basic and simple, the point is that she has obviously taken this attitude toward all men because that was most of the content of our conversations--her thirteen years of dating one "jerk" after another. However, I do think that she deserves her "equal." After all, bitchy guys do exist as well. Like my four-date-nightmare, there are too many women who complain about men not being romantic. The truth is that we guys are very capable of being romantic. It's just that a woman with a self-centered attitude isn't worth the effort on our part. Oh, we'll go to bed with her as long as we can tolerate her barbs, griping, and whining but don't think for one minute that we are going to ever get down on one knee and ask if she would like to wear our engagement ring. No, that request will be saved for a truly liberated woman--the one who is liberated from herself.

MC: All right. All right. I see your point. Some women are a little too over-the-edge bitchy. But sometimes we do that because deep inside we're scared. So thats how we deal with our fears....

Aggressiveness vs. Attraction... In a perfect world, liberated women would be less aggressive and good men would be much more understanding regarding how to treat a woman more as a person than prey. Those couples who are enjoying a truly mutually fulfilling relationship are doing so because they have worked at developing balance, understanding each other, and relearning the simple truth that all of us need to be treated as valued human beings if we are to love truly and feel genuinely loved in return. The world isn't perfect but, then again, each of us has the ability to read just our thinking so that we can bring both maturity and understanding to our own primary relationships. Either that or we'll just have to adapt to being unhappy and very much alone. May every woman experience nothing but the right to be free in every way and do well in whatever they attempt to do with no man-made obstacles to have to confront along the way. That is your right and that is what your fore-mothers worked so hard to accomplish for you. All I am saying here is that some of you are obviously making the mistake of becoming exactly what you have historically hated in men. Don't be a bitch and if you are one, don't blame it on men. Take responsibility for yourselves and be our friends, companions, counterparts, equals, lovers, and partners.

MC: It's all about balance baby.

And last but not least here is a paragraph from one of "Bitch Ph.D" 's blog entries.

Strong women, as we all know, all get called "bitch" sooner or later.

MC: Mhm. Yes we do. But all we're doing is trying to hold our own...we're trying to do something good with our lives and people think we've got attitudes....bleh!

That's the spirit in which I named the blog; and sure enough, there've been a few comments here and there, or references elsewhere on the internets, that say something like "I can see why you call yourself a bitch," usually in reference to something I said where I wasn't going to take someone else's bullshit. We all know a lot of women who will cop to being a "bitch" in this sense, and we've all heard the little jingle about how "BITCH = Babe in Total Control of Herself." The reclaiming of "bitch," I think, refers primarily to this sense: it's a preemptive move that women use to take the wind out of the misogynist sail.

MC: To this I say AMEN SISTA!!!

Goodnight! *wink*

A New Page

Along with this semi-private journal, I am keeping a private journal along with all the others I have written in the past 10 years. Someday I hope to compile every blog, journal, and diary entry, and make a book out of it. Will people be interested enough to read it? I don't know. Maybe. But it doesn't really matter to me. As long as my grandchildren have something to read and (sadly) laugh at, it's all good to me. If it's publishable, then great. But I'm not counting on it. ;)
Man, I want to do ALOT of things with my life. Gah. I think I've said this before, but, I don't want to just stop at nursing. What life is that? I guess some would call it a normal life. Yes, maybe it is. But I want to do oh so much more. Hopefully I don't settle down and get married. Because that, for me, is pretty much when "your" life stops. Yes, I know, I'm probably wrong. But my man (if there is one good enough, so far there isn't any that even come close), he's gonna have to deal with me. I mean, I'm one feisty ambitious chick. The only guy that I believe could handle me at this moment is Superman. And even that would be an accomplishment for him. I dunno. I dunno. There has to be somebody pretty darn special to handle me, ha, even to catch my eye.

Yes, I will never be married. Sad.
But maybe so much better? We shall see.

People...*rolls eyes*

Has anyone seen how adults of this generation act today? Totally embarrassing. I was in a class with about 10 25-40 year old women, and I couldn't believe what I was hearing and seeing.
They acted like a bunch of freshmen, no no, I am overesteming their character. They acted like a bunch of public school junior high girls, who have no respect, no character, and a bunch of attitudes. It was unbelievable. Unbelievable. The instructor told them time and time again to shut up. They never once shut thier mouths!
While I was driving home, I was disheartned of the fact that adults these days act like little children. It's quite depressing when you are an 18 year old just starting out in life, striving for perfection, and you've got these lame excuses for adults acting like they never had a mother. Is this the example they set? Is this what you call adulthood? Does growing up stop at junior high school? I'm not talking about 20 year olds here (although they should be acting more mature than me by this point), but women in thier mid-thirties acting like they have no respect?! Even worse, one of my classmates, a new immigrant from Romania, asked me "Is this how it is in American Schools? Where they have no respect? No discipline? No integrity?". I told her straight up "Yes, most defenately, and it's even worse in public school". Now, if thats not embarrassing, then what is? It's sad. Real sad. And it will only get worse. I went home and told my mother about what I had seen and heard. She commented, "I know. It's true. It's true.", with laughter. But she also said it was the type of people I was around and that when I get to college, it will be different. Now that, I hope to God is true, but I know I must be prepared for the inevitable dissapointment that just lurks around the corner.

It's finally official!

After long hours studying, testing, externing, and worrying. My day has finally come. The day I get to feast my eyes upon that glorious piece of paper that shows I am qualified. To legally put those sweet seven intials after my name. Yes, thats right. You are reading the journal of a Registered Medical Assistant and Registered Phlebotomist. My name is not just Miranda Thompson, but now: Miranda Thompson, RMA, RPbt.
Oh what a glorious day!
This means that I am legally qualified to give you a shot, pull your blood, take your vitals, do many tests, schedule appointments, etc, etc, etc....under the supervision of a physician.

Now, let me tell you what, I am faxing my resume out TONIGHT. I am tired of waiting. This is the week to go hunting. I am getting that coveted position at the doctor's office by the end of next week! You watch!

Noo..It's a "Felon's Claw"!!!!

I've been studying some graphology as of late. It's some interesting stuff. Now when I see cursive handwriting, I don't think "Oh how pretty" but also "Hmm that 'J' is kind of curved a bit odd at the end, maybe that means (insert name here) is guilty about something...". And hey, get your own handwriting analyzed free here: http://www.handwritingwizard.com/. It's pretty thorough and accurate!
The way they describe the validity of the analysis is this- your handwriting is like "brain prints". It shows how you really are and how you really feel about things and life in general. It can show if you are lying one day, or your honest the next. It is so accurate that they use this to help catch criminals!
So yeah, I'm studying this pretty much for no reason except that it is INTERESTING!! Very interesting...
Here's an example of what I've been reading:

Graphology - Handwriting Analysis
1. Are your Us and Ws rounded on their bottoms? You're sensitive and maybe poetic.
2. Do you cross your Ts in the middle or at the top? The lower you cross your T, the less ambition you have.
3. Do you loop your Cs at the top? Then, to quote Carly Simon, you're so vain.
4. Are your As and Os tightly closed? Perhaps you're hiding something.
5. Do your letters slant every which way? If so, then yikes. Only 10 percent of the general population has a wobbly slant--compared with 70 to 80 percent of convicted felons.
6. Do you have the "felon's claw"? It's another hallmark of the criminal, and it occurs when you bring a letter straight down, then attach a claw-shaped curve to its end--say when you're writing the lowercase y.
7. Is your signature different from your regular handwriting? Then perhaps you're putting on an act.
8. Do the connecting swoops between your letters droop? Maybe you have a martyr complex, and are carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders.
9. Is your handwriting spiky and angular? Relax. There's no need to be so tense.
10. Are your letters a bit squatty? If they're biggest in the middle zone, and don't extend much up or below the baseline, then you're perhaps a bit childish. The Disney logo, based on Walt Disney's handwriting, is a good example of this.

These ten tips come from Handwriting Analysis: Putting It to Work for You by Andrea McNichol, and Handwriting Analysis by Karen Kristin Amend and Mary Stansbury Ruiz.

This is my Handwriting Analysis without all the pictures of the samples of handwriting (it would be to large to have all the pictures plastered on here).

******* The Analysis Starts Here *******

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Miranda has left lots of white space on the left side of the paper. Miranda fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Miranda has a healthy relationship to the past and is ready to move on. The right side of the page represents the future and Miranda is ready and willing to get started living now and planning for the future. Miranda would like to leave the past behind and move on.

Miranda exaggerates about everything that has a physical nature. Although she may not intend to deceive or mislead, she blows things way out of proportion because that is the way she views them. She will be a good story teller. This exaggeration relates to all areas of her material world. Miranda allows many people into her life because she is accepting and trusting. She is sometimes called gullible by her friends. That only really means that she trusts too many people. Miranda has a vivid imagination.

Miranda has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

Miranda is very self-sufficient. She is trying not to need anyone. She is capable of making it on her own. She probably wants and enjoys people, but she doesn't "need" them. She can be a loner.


Miranda is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Miranda basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

In reference to Miranda's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Miranda slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Miranda can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip
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Miranda will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!

Miranda is sensitive to criticism about her ideas and philosophies. She will sometimes worry what people will think if she tells them what she believes in. This doesn't mean she won't talk, or that she feels ashamed. It merely means she is sensitive to what others think, regarding her beliefs.

Miranda is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes. Miranda will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Miranda an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other. When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Miranda is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story. Miranda is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Miranda doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Miranda can be defiant. She sometimes has the attitude that if someone doesn't like it the way she is doing it, then they can just "go to hell!" This trait may reveal itself in a rebellious nature that is always ready to resist forces which she thinks are infringing upon her freedom of action.

Meh..

Man does this picture tell the whole story. Marilyn looks like "yeah, bleh, you don't wanna know.." And that exactly how I feel right now. Yeah sure, my hair isn't damaged anymore, because I got it cut short short short, but it's such a drastic change that I'm in a sort of shock right now. I reallllly want to be positive about it and tell everyone, "heck yeah I'd look good even without hair!" but I'm so much in shock that I'm like "meh".

Oh yeah, That picture of Marilyn, thats the length and look of my hair right now. It's alright. I guess. Ah, to hell with it, I could be dying of cancer and losing the hair outta my scalp, but am I? No. All I did was have a baaaaad perm. Which will grow out and I shall live and learn from. So I'll just rock the Marilyn look for a couple of months. Besides, my nickname is "Marilyn Miranda"...

A scream in the night....

This is the story of a little girl. Who got a bad perm. And screamed.

One day, a little girl thought she needed to do something with her hair so she would be the fairest in the land. She went to the magic beauty godmothers and gathered all the things she needed. Then she went to her grandmother's house and got some curling rods. She asked her mom to do her hair because it would cost less money. Her gracious mother agreed.
So after 2 hours of curling, wetting, neutralizing, etc, the process was finally finished.
The little girl went to stare into the mirror in excitement, happy to finally have the fairest hair in all the land. After moments of looking at her countenence, she couldn't believe her eyes.
There, in the mirror, was a monster. Not the pretty hair she had imagined, but a frightfull puff ball of stringy hair.
She immediately started panicing. Crying. Sobbing.
Her hair was no more.

And what does this story teach us? That money can't buy beauty.
And who was the little girl in the story? That's right.....Me. Today (or, rather, tonight), as I type. As of now, I am soaking my hair with a hot oil treatment desperately trying to get back to my BEAUTIFUL STRAIGHT hair. Actually, It's naturally wavy and I wanted to get a perm to make it wavier. But guess what I got? Yeah, nice 80's Nicole Kidman hair. Oh yeah, can we say "sexy sexy"?
But you know, maybe I need this. Maybe it will teach me to like MYSELF instead of that cheap impression of beauty out there. I think this is the last straw with my hair dying, perming, damaging woes. I'm done. I think I shall cut my hair and let it grow out my natural color (dark blonde) and let it naturally wave. If this treatment doesn't work, to the chopping block my hair will go. And then, never again will I ever try to be something else.

My Addiction

And I'm damn proud. I.....am addicted to......

Books.

Everytime I walk into a bookstore I cannot make it out in less than an hour. I must READ, and read, and READ. Until there is nothing left that interests me.
For example, I went to my local Goodwill to get some summer tops and unbeknownst to me, there was......a glorious, beautiful, extraordinary, stash....of BOOKS. Like a mountain of glorious information waiting for me to devouer. And then....I came across....the MEDICAL section. And it was then...that I couldn't....go back.
And so therefore, I bought four books.
The End.

Journalism?

May be a possibility. I've been seriously contemplating it as a minor. In high school, whenever I wrote a research paper or speech, I was always complimented on how well I would write. How thorough it was, etc..
I just have this strong drive to write, to research, to expose the truth. It's almost up there with the stronger drive I have to become a nurse. Maybe I'm destined to become a writer for a health magazine someday. That would be interesting. I would looove to write about the different aspects of health care.
I mean, I don't want to just stop at nursing. I want to do more with my life. Maybe I'll even double major in Nursing and Journalism. Maybe I'll go to Europe and use my nursing skills there. Maybe I'll even retire from nursing and be a science journalist for the Tulsa World.
The thought of just working a day job after college frightens me....
What happens then? Work until I become bored with nursing? Or will I become the charge nurse of the neonatal unit? Like I've always wanted? But even then...what happens??? I constantly want to be doing bigger and better things with my life. I don't just wanna stop. There's a whole world out there and I want to conquer it!

Back to the hang of things...

I know. Another site that will waste a buttload of my time.
But this site is oh so much better. And here is my explanation why...

Everybody is addicted to myspace. Holy cow. After watching a couple of 20 yr olds slowly trying to get off their damn profile so they can go out with their friends to the bar, I thought I was crazy addicted...I used to be. But what's the point?
It's just a damn profile. You can't splurge your feelings out in the open and let the world know what you think. Nobody gets to know the real you. Just a face. Some icons, vital statistics, and a couple of worthless songs.
Well, really though, America is just damn lazy. Pshh, nobody ever uses those blog sections on their myspace profile. It's all about the fame these days. Just how many friends can you actually have? Seriously. If you have more than 100 friends, I don't believe you. And who the hell cares anyway except for your top friends? And even that gets complicated, because then people get pissed off at you for moving them a little to the right one spot. "Hey! I'm your best friend! Whats the deal!?", "Uhm well, you know, my sister means a heck of alot more to me than you ever will. Sorry but that's just the naked truth. Deal with it."

My point is, nobody wants to write. Use their brain. Think. Debate.
I miss it. All this rubbish with the self centerdness crap with myspace and facebook, you start to think the world revolves around you...I can't stand it. I mean, it (life) isn't about you, it's about what you can do for others. And after watching Angelina Jolie on Larry King Live talk about her work with the UN, being an ambassador, seeing what life is like on the other sideof the fence, helping people, solving issues...Is very motivating to me. And it should be. What she is doing earns alot of respect in my eyes. Yeah yeah, she's a hollywood actress....but she's a heckofalot better than the normal American person sitting on the their ass, typing up a survey and posting it on the bulliten section on myspace. If your gonna waste time on the net, waste it wisely. Read about stem cell research, the presidential election, the change of climate and it's effects on our economy, or even learning a new hobby. Start a blog, like this one, and start debating over who should win the next election. Heck, debate about who should win "So you think you can dance" I don't care. At least you're using your brain.
I mean C'mon, don't you know that people don't care about your life anyway? All they care about is what you do with it. So do something...... and get back to the hang of things.